Reflection

If you would have told me a year ago all of the changes that were coming, I don’t know if I would have believed it.  We struggle to envision miraculous things because we can only see from our view.  If only we could begin to see things through Gods view, we would realize things are possible beyond what we could ever imagine.  Yes, God is that good!

This last year has been full of uncertainty and excitement.  It has been terrifying, yet quite extraordinary.  It has been challenging, yet enlightening.  It has pushed me further than I would have ever chosen but so worth it.  I have learned so much about myself and the world.  It has forced me to look deep within and to uncover things that I didn’t even realize were still there.  It has forced me to deal with pain, anger, resentment, healing, love, loneliness and joy.  It has given me great perspective.  It has given me peace.  It has forced me to make choices; some easy, some difficult, but all necessary.  It has brought my family closer.  It has forced me outside of any comfort I’ve known.  It has forced me to question everything I’ve known.  It has forced me to trust people I don’t know.  It has reminded me that I only have to answer to God.

You see the world has been harsh.  People over time have taken piece after piece of me, leaving almost nothing.  I used to have this light about me, this pure beauty and confidence, this ambition and motivation that anything was possible.  I wanted so much out of life, for myself, for the world.  Over time, I allowed people and the world to dim that light.  I inadvertently started to believe them, what they saw as possible.  I allowed them to keep score for me.

I don’t know what’s next but I am looking forward to it…